Simple words

Three Little words, I LUV U
Simplest and still hard to fully understand.
They are powerful , but its has taken me far
for their meaning to comprehend.

Enjoying every little moment , when i feel iam wanted
And trying to beleive in whats true.
Growing up as an adult, is driving me crazy,
to walk on roads which are new.

I have few friends , who live in my heart,
Time and distance always keeps us apart.
Constantly i feel the need to be with them,
Just that i know in real life , good friend arms are not always there and then.

Too Many Not's !

Not Inspired,
Just in an emotional stream,
I went off testing my beliefs and dreams.

Not Knowing,
And still knowing it all,
I felt cud change what's there to fall.

Not Wanting,
And now no desires left,
I found myself alone and bereft.

Not Trying,
Just in a act of life,
Iam playing a daughter, sister and perhaps someday a wife.

Not Sad,Not Happy
Blurr seems to be the picture of me being lucky!

Now a days I admire my own patience
Hope sitting alone for long would give me answer for my silence.

Desire !

Someone special to be my soul mate,
Is he out there searching me and my fate.
We all want something we cant have,
And love can be good as well as bad.
The days would come when i 'll love someone,
Would be holding hands and be in his strong arms.
Sweet passionate moments together,
Time would stop then to wander.
Feeling of heavenly bliss,With his touch and first kiss.
I know i'll find someone who is loving and kind,
Just that i hope my feelings are not left behind.
Little scared and nervous to go ahead,
But what can we do ,

Life is a journey to be lead.

Do we know life?

Life as we know it ,
plays diffrent roles for us ,even if we want or not.
It has its own destiny ,
where we fall just to obey and face irony.

Whatever we might say, that we rule over it,
there is not even a moment,where we can conquer it.

It decides the fate of being with someone, or not together
invisible trail of love , can be lost forever
we just hope life wud be better,
but past tries to haunts us and be more wanting ever and ever.

Over and over the lessons taught ,
dont seem to fulfill our desires, and leave us distraught.
Taking so much pain and living accordingly
is it necessary to have a life ............like this and live so painfully.

Why cant we write our own story,
and we choose another path to give up everything of the past.
Haunting and pain wud be gone, and
so wud be the memories that make us frown.

I just hope past gets erased, now i wait for my new life to be at pace
critical moments i have to face ,
in agony and pain which i never want to embrace.
I'll live upto the time i feel , in this maze
once the riddle is solved ,i'll give up to be always in my sweet dreams
and memories with more love than dismay and disgrace.

Why Do I Write?

Writing poems is what i do,
when my mind is under emotional flue.

Writing poems is what i do,
when i wanna express my desires unfulfilled and true.

Writing poems is what i want,
when mind wonders around states whom i controll cant .

Writing poems is what i want ,
when i have cirumstances to be described in flaunt.

Writing to me and others ,
have diffrent effects and answers.
Not all whom i love and hate,
have ability to underline my case.
I have no regrets for what i do,
in some case its an outlet for my emotional values
and in others just remembrances of some happenings i went thru..

Finale!

Saying bye is never an easy thing to say
but, it was inevitable that i would come to this day.

it's the hardest thing i have to do
and , it's killing me to let go of you.

From the beginning, i knew there was no chance
for this one-sided romance
my mind tells me my emotions aren't true
but, my heart cannot deny that i've had fallen for you.

Once again i've let myself down,
without exepecting this in town and
now all i do is weep and frown.

My dreams are of you holding me in your tight embrace
and the memories i'd ever wanted are now erased.
Heart do tell things you wanna follow ,
but minds takes me off from this sleepy hollow.

You've made me feel emotions i've never felt before
that's why it's so hard to close this loving door.

My story never was of cinderella,
niether was i the one charmed with magic,
Still harder it gets , to know how people are
and their acts , as they behave change ur world with ending as bad and tragic.

But, now it's time to say goodbye, my wonderful enemy or friend
before my passion turns me into a dark end
because, as always, great things... have a great end.

Cold moments

Nobody is there except me, for myself to listen and
care.The one i expected ,was never even there.

Complexity of relationships,have pulled the strings so
far.Now mending the wear would need another life and heart.

I will survive as far as i want ,and as desire gets wearker would turn myself into a cold stone.

Friendship and love i have shared all,now i have also
seen alone spring, autumn and fall.

Life is full of surprises, everyday new one comes in keeping my eyes open , i try
to catch them and save in.To let there be a stack for ,when iam gone to be traced not to have pity on it rather learn to be more brave.